We have come to the end of the road for 'Manila Downunder Mk1', the final post on a website that has seen 11746 hits in the year and a half it has operated.
Yesterday I was told by a former member of the barkada that I now have an 'attitude problem'.
They are indeed correct, but what all seem to not wish to acknowledge is how that attitude problem came about.
Why do they refuse to acknowledge?
Interesting you should ask. I never used to be this way, I used to try to help where possible and loved to be a part of this life sucking community, indeed I still love the people in the Philippines itself which, in itself, should speak loud for the people around here.
~~ HYPOCRISY GROUND ZERO - EASTLAKES ~~
Hypocrisy (noun)- a pretense of having virtuous character, moral or religious beliefs or principles, etc, that one does not really possess.
* Just because you have a disagreement doesn't mean you should take it out on people around the other person.
* I am sorry, I can't accept such morally wrong actions.
* I will not go anywhere they are because I don't like them.
* All problems should be discussed together and not kept to ones self.
* I am open and forthright with my views.
WHAT STINKY BOLLOCKS!!!
HOW MANY PEOPLE ACTUALLY FOLLOW (OR BELIEVE)
THE CRAP THEY SPURT FORTH?
GOSSIPING
HATRED
BACKSTABBING
LIES
RUMOURS
PRETEND FRIENDSHIP
Yet still there seems to be a universal horror when someone is confronted about it - an amazement that you would even consider them to be doing something wrong - that you would even bloody dare to stop them on their crusade of complete crap.
I can see them now, reading this, wondering what they all did wrong to deserve this sort of thought.
WELL LET ME EXPLAIN TO THE MORONS!
I was a complete person after my 2004 trip to the Philippines, I was happy and looking to get involved and help a community that looked like fun.
Five years later I have a supposed attitude problem, can't even stand to be involved with anyone in Australia, suffer depression a dread the miserable downer feeling that comes with having to see many of the worse examples in a local street or shopping centre.
You do the maths -
IT IS YOU PEOPLE WHO CAUSED ME TO BE THIS WAY.SO DON'T EVEN DARE TO BLOODY WHINGE ABOUT INTHAT PATHETIC WAY SO MANY SEEM TO DO!What do people honestly expect?
You spread lies, hate and gossip, most of it being a reflection on the communities thoughts about you, and you expect nothing to happen.
You allow shear ignorance to guide you decisions - I mean, god knows, there can't be two sides to a story. That would just be logical and who really has time for logic?
Lets face it, the more pathetic examples will be ringing people everywhere to spread lies about this posting as well. Why, because the lack of life so many accuse others of having, is actually YOURS!
~~ THE TRUE VICTIMS - THE PEOPLE BACK HOME ~~
It is this pathetic attitude that reflects badly on people back home.
But you don't give a donkey poop about them.
It is you who made it - you who are above these people - you who can look after your own self interest.
How many have even given to some society back home - taken time to care about a charity - given to the less fortunate who remain (EXCLUDING FAMILY)?
VERY BLOODY FEW I'D HAZARD A GUESS!
LETS HAVE A REALITY CHECK FOR ONE MOMENT: Material things matter as little here as they did back there - Material things INCREDIBLY do not make you a better, or more superior person.
The only thing that makes you superior is actions, this can make you superior in two ways, a superior human, or a SUPERIOR JERK!
TRUTH HURTS DOESN'T IT
So where am I today, what does a hollow shell of a man do, one that has virtually been raped and violated by a community and left for dead?
One who feels he has been bent over, reamed with a 12 inch cucumber and left in a shattered heap, to die for all they care?Please - whatever you do, don't mention all the things you did. The guilt starts to set in and your told that your not suppose to bring THAT up because you are supposed to do it out of the goodness of your heart.
BULLSHIT, that is just another way to try to remove any possible guilt, any possible acknowledgment of any wrong doing!
I have met an endless throng of people who have been involved, used, chewed up and spat out a very disenchanted person, with a very sad view on their experience and a true desire never to get involved again. Most of these are people from the same place the offenders came from.
A FETID DISEASE IN THE COMMUNITY
So next time anyone chooses to whinge about me, to moan about my attitude, to bitch about anyone else.
LOOK IN THE MIRROR!Because it was likely your part in the community that has destroyed that which I used to be. Then all of you run along and continue to do it, because that is what you do, that is all you know and,
THAT IS ALL ANYONE GIVES A SHIT ABOUT.YOU HAVE DESTROYED ME FOR A VERY LONG TIME - YOU HAVE DESTROYED A FRIEND TO THE COMMUNITY HERE IN AUSTRALIA - BUT PLEASE, DON'T LET ME INTERRUPT YOUR ENDLESS CRUSADES OF HATE - AFTER ALL WHAT ELSE HAS LIFE GOT TO OFFER?YOU WILL ALWAYS BE WANTED - EVEN WHEN THE MISERABLE EXISTENCE IS OVER - SATAN IS EAGERLY AWAITING TO GREET YOU!At least I don't need to look forward to that.
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GUILT: (Noun) - a feeling of responsibility and remorse for some crime, offence, act etc.-----------------------------------------------
With apologies to the good people out there - you know who you are and
I still value your friendship.
You should feel proud to exist in a minority of people who care and are real.
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